ten years after my first blog, i'm back again.
and like ten years ago, i seem to be in a bit of a funk.
you see, that's the problem. it seems that artists produce their most influential work at times of personal crisis...van gogh comes to mind...the bastard was batshit crazy but still managed to posthumously become fuckin' famous and lauded for his artwork. but me? no i'm not the same...i wish i could be, but there comes a point in time when you look around and realize that all this bullshit you have in your head is...to say the least, suffocating.
not even sure if i've been thinking straight lately. but one too many unexplainable temper tantrums that play out in my head...then subdued...which inexplicably flare up again at a later time. i'm just not sure anymore...there's so much shit i wanna say but if i start it'll be like LL's word vomit from mean girls except in my version it won't make any fucking sense. it'll be piles and piles of convoluted shit like a pile of rope with no beginning and no end. just completely fucking useless.
........ah fuck it. hopefully i'll find a bit of pleasure somewhere soon. i need it.
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welcome welcome gary liao. but i dunno why after reading ur blog, im seeing double vision....is it the black background and white character...anyway...happy to see u here. dump all ur shit here and seriously no one would care if it makes sense.
btw u need to set up ur account to allow ppl who doesnt have google account to leave msg.
haha..readin' ur blog like a month later.. oops..gar gar.. i do believe the greyness..the unsettlin'ness.. the mess are all part of a significant transition period.. the pt is to get pass by it.. easier to be said than done..so is life..
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